This is how I’d fallen out of love with them:
I didn’t. It’s just that one day I woke up, and I just..
I just didn’t feel anything for them, Not love, Not hate, Not angry, not even sadness or disappointments,… just nothing. Like my heart and even my mind, entered into a sudden Oblivion, and it just forgot….lost. It forgot to remember to care for them or to think of them, and in a blink of eye, everything about them, even the feelings, I associated with them, are erased. And they didn’t matter any more. Like they never really mattered at all.
And I am okay with it. I mean it. It’s a lot like looking like a grey canvas. What do you suppose to feel about it? Nothing, right? Nothing…and just okay.
(Live sketch by a good friend of mine…)
You know what? I won’t lie to you.. people will leave you eventually. Even the ones who promised to stay, to stay when the whole world leave you, to hold your hands when everyone else left you; will leave you.
And it’s okay to miss them, it’s okay to move alone, it’s okay to feel lost, it’s okay to connect the dots you don’t even know exist…… because it’s great to be with yourself, it’s awesome to be you.
One thing I have learned from my life that, “Anyone can love you when the sun is shining, In the storms is where you learn who truly cares for you.
When someone left you, don’t be sad… It’s just a beautiful sign that someone more beautiful is on his/her way to you – giving you much more back what other person took from you.
I have heard that “life is the only exam that teaches you the lessons after taking the exams.”
Same thing happens to you when people, whom you loved & cared the most, leave you. What’s important is to learn the lessons when they’re gone. And let me clarify here very categorically, it’s not always your fault when someone left you, no…not at all.
Let me tell you a story of a “Blind Love”….
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she’s blind. She hated everyone except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry with her boyfriend.
One beautiful day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everyone and everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, “now that you can see the world, will you marry me?”
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend’s heart got broken, dreams got shattered and his soul got lost….he walked away in tears with weighed heart and wrote a letter to her saying :-
“Just take care of my eyes dear, I loved you, I love you and I’ll always love you, with the bottom of my heart.”
Don’t feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them. In a layman’s word, “They don’t deserve you.”
So stop making yourself feel guilty, enjoy the lessons and welcome the best & beautiful newcomers, but this time….please choose people wisely. Smile and be happy. š
Saurabh Kumar 